Monday, December 28, 2015

Maternity Photoshoot

Pictures were taken by Debra Fong.

Some random facts :

1) The dress that I wore was initially intended to be worn at a friend's wedding in Perth. However, my parcel could not be located and I wrote in to ASOS multiple times. They refunded my money (but the amount refunded was less by RM100 due to exchange rate loss). About a few weeks later, the parcel with my clothes mysteriously arrived.

2) I thought of wearing a white dress but for the photoshoot but Mike said that the dress was "too short".

3) Pictures were taken at the field near my parents' house on Christmas Eve.

4) I am 37 weeks pregnant in the photos.

5) I used sample pictures online as my "guide to pose". It's not as easy as it looks okay, as I am not a professional poser.

6) One picture that I really wanted to have to keep but forgot to take was the cliche 'hands over bump pose' with my fingers forming a shape of a heart :*(

7) The photoshoot took about half an hour. We were rushing to take pictures because there were SO MANY mosquitoes - Mike and Debra got bitten. I was luckily spared - think the mosquitoes couldn't penetrate through my skin with all the 'water retention' going on. Hahahaha.

8) My sis brought me a flower headband to wear, but I didn't want to look too poser-ish in the field. LOL. I told her that I wanted the pictures to look "as natural" as possible.

9) I cringe whenever I look at the poser pics we tried to do - there were a couple of AWKWARD ones. 

My sis said that this was a 'boring' pose.

One of the typical maternity shot poses :D

I love this pic !!!!

Another mandatory maternity photoshoot pic.

The bump is the highlight.

Was planning to engage a photographer for newborn baby pics BUT, maybe I'll use my sister's "photography services" once again. Hehe.

Saturday, December 26, 2015

37 weeks

The "ugly" side of pregnancy has reared its head this week.

Actually,  I think it was in Week 34 that I first noticed the stretch marks.

Prior to that, my skin condition had also taken a toll.

My back was filled with breakouts and now it's full of scars thanks to my itchy fingers.
I would get pimples at odd areas - occasionally in my ears and behind.
On my shoulders and arms too. WEIRD!

Darkened armpits too. Ugh.

I've also been getting some weird rash with odd itchy dots popping up at random places also.

Just this week, my hands and feet started to swell.
2 weeks ago, my wedding band would still fit my finger but I can't wear it anymore.

I couldn't wear my engagement ring when I was 6 months pregnant.
My wedding band is a little bit looser compared to my engagement ring.

I lost my ankles this week.
My feet look extremely weird.

There are days when it looks normal but more often than not, it looks like a giant's feet.
Doesn't help that I have big feet too! -_-"

I've never really felt good about myself over the past few months and although earlier, I was thinking of whether to engage a photographer to take maternity shots, I dismissed it after looking at myself in the mirror. 

It'd be a waste of money for me to take pictures for the sake of it while not liking how I look in the pics. Whatmore, having to fork out money for it.

However, at the very last minute, just because I didn't want to live with any "regrets" or "should haves", I asked my sister for a favour to take pictures. 

That way, I wouldn't have to PAY for ugly photos of myself but I'll get to keep a few "standard" / "basic" maternity photos as a keepsake. Will share photos in the next post :)

Friday, December 25, 2015

Christmas Eve Dinner @ The Fongs

I was in charge of desserts for dinner - brought chocolate shortbread cookies, a non bake mango cheesecake + cupcakes and sticky date pudding.

When I went to Cold Storage to get pitted dates, there was only one tupperware left on the shelf! Can't help but think that everybody was making sticky date pudding for Christmas Eve.

I never knew that shortbread cookies only required three ingredients (for normal butter shortbread cookies). I love shortbread cookies btw but somehow, never thought of baking it. 

Only this time around, this recipe popped up when I was "researching" on what to bake as shortbread is a popular holiday + christmas cookie.

Joey brought some really good brownies - tasted like Mrs Fields.

Cute cake toppers that my sister bought from Penang.

Peanut butter chocolate chip cookies that my sister baked for guests to take home.

Because I didn't eat lunch that day, I was SO hungry and started stuffing myself with sausages. . . leaving very little room for the yummy lamb and chicken drumsticks.

Seafood aglio olio. Tasty.

I think that the last time I utilised this grill/BBQ stove was when I planned a surprise party for Mike which was ages ago!

After uploading this pics, I told Mike that I felt like eating BBQ chicken . . . and he told me that he didn't know where to get any at this hour. LOL.

Presents ! Yay!

Thursday, December 24, 2015

The Mother's Birthday.

Can't believe that in one weeks' time, we will be stepping into a brand new year, yet once again.

Did plenty of self reflection during my idle moments about life and what I intend to do, but there's nothing conclusive as of yet. Basically, I am refusing to THINK of any 2016 plans because the baby's arrival is a BIG PLAN on its own.

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Anyway, since I noticed that my blog is just too wordy, yet once again, time to post some pictures to brighten it up! 

Last month was my mother's **th birthday (not sure if I'm allowed to reveal her age) but basically, it's a "milestone birthday" so I'm sure you can pretty much guess her age.  

My sis suggested to prepare a homecooked meal for her birthday. It was hard work (given my physical condition) - body aches and whatnot but it was a good 'workout' nonetheless. LOL.

I made a prawn avocado salsa to be eaten with Nachos as appetisers.

I used the prawn shells (from the prawn salsa) and attempted to make a "prawn bisque" that ended up tasting more like vegetable soup.

Three types of mushrooms cooked in garlic and balsamic vinegar on a French loaf with mozzarella cheese. It was so simple and easy to make but so tasty.

I couldn't stop eating it!!!

My sister cooked the main meal. She bought two types of fish - salmon and sea bass.

The salmon was really juicy. Topped with some lemon herb butter sauce that my sis also made.

A meal that took literally the whole day to prepare - but finished within 10 minutes. Hahaha.

Family picture.

Wednesday, December 23, 2015


Been dreaming almost every other day.

Whenever I tell Mike about my dreams, he'll start 'nagging' at me saying that it's because I'm not "occupied" so I start thinking/dreaming of nonsense. SHEESH.

My dreams are usually weird/scary ! Like there was a time, every other day I would be dreaming about WAR! Like, I'm trying to escape a warzone. There are mines, machine guns and grenades.

It was a very, very dark dream. I'd be like crawling on the floor trying to escape gun shots and in my dream, I'm also pregnant -_-"

There would be thick dust and debris all over. I'm forever running away in my dream. Trying to survive the war. Must be reading too much CNN.

Recently, Mike woke me up in the morning to ask me, "What's wrong?"

Apparently, I was frowning in my sleep and I woke up feeling SUPER angry.

I dreamt that the bolster on the bed kept falling off a few times and Mike would grumpily pick up the bolster and scold me and NAG at me, "The floor is SO dirty bla bla bla." I got so irritated because in my dream, the bolster just kept rolling off the bed and I couldn't stop it.

Plus, the nagging annoys me.

So I scolded him that morning when he woke me up. He told me that he did pick up my bolster that fell off that morning but he didn't say anything. LOL.

And then today, I dreamt that Mike was driving REALLY fast in his car and I was seated behind with the baby. I started scolding him to remind him that there was a baby in the car. After scolding him, Mike gave me some 'errands' to do and I got DAMN ANNOYED once more.

Wonder what does all this signify? HMMM! My conclusion is that, one of my biggest fears is the lack of husband involvement in raising a child! LOL.

But the funniest dream of all time was when I dreamt of 'the horse' *inside joke*.  I was trying to escape him and started whacking him physically. I ended up elbowing Mike's hand in real life while he was asleep.

My eyes were also actually closed but I woke up after hearing Mike shout - "Ahhhhhh!!!". 

I elbowed Mike's hand and even rubbed my elbow really hard hard into his hand. Every time I think of that, I start laughing.

Monday, December 21, 2015

36 weeks.

Today, I woke up at 5.00 a.m. and started thinking of all kinds of nonsense - about parenting, fears, etc.

Couldn't seem to go back to sleep and I started thinking of what to make for breakfast today. Started googling for cheese and ham scone recipes and in between, I kept reasoning with myself on whether to bake or not to bake savoury scones.

In the end, I thought that it would be better to finish the loaf of bread on the table so I ended up making tuna sandwiches for breakfast.

Took a one hour nap at 10 a.m. after that before getting ready for my check up.

I really dislike days as such when I just can't sleep! Suddenly, it feels as though there are just too many hours in a day and I don't have anything meaningful to do.

So today, I told my gynae about the pain in my wrist and asked her whether it was carpal tunnel syndrome and she told me that it wasn't the case. OOOPS. I have misdiagnosed myself. She said that I am suffering from tendonitis because it is my wrist that is aching and not my fingers.

Apparently, this is also common during pregnancy and she said it may worsen during breastfeeding. Lucky for me, I managed to buy the very LAST hand brace at the clinic for my left hand. I'm just thankful that it's only my left hand that is affected - apparently, some people get it on both hands!

I can't really carry heavy objects with my left hand because it really, really hurts! Plus, it doesn't help that I'm left handed -_-"

During the scan today, the baby's face could not even be seen at all. The baby's entire back was against my tummy but from the scan, the doctor showed me that my baby already has HAIR! So pleased to hear that because I kept imagining a somewhat hairless baby ... because Mike and I both had very scarce/fine hair as babies.

Just a few more weeks to go before my life entirely changes. I've been asking Mike over the past months to just IMAGINE how our lives would be like come 2016.

Looks like I don't have to use the power of imagination anymore, since right now, the baby will be saying HI to us soon.

So nervous yet excited at the same time. Been reading a lot of scary pregnancy stories as well. At this point in time, I think that I'm just going to get an epidural.

Thursday, December 10, 2015

A chicken rice tale.

Once a week, I will usually buy chicken and roast pork rice (siew yuk kai fan) from the same shop in Damansara Jaya whenever I bring my parents' maid over to my house for cleaning.

Today, I arrived a little late than usual and as it was after 12 p.m., parking is always a problem. If I were there 10 minutes earlier, I would usually be able to park right in front of the shop.

So anyways, I had to park slightly further away today.

When I reached the shop, the chicken rice seller had already packed the soup for me.
He then told his helper, "Ini untuk dia."

I told Mike about this and he didn't seem to believe me. He was thinking that it was such exceptional service.

But to me, it freaks me out.

The chicken rice seller spotted my car as I drove past his stall and he already was anticipating my usual order - siew yuk kai pei and siew yuk kai hong and soup. 

He didn't slice the chicken and roast pork yet but he was waiting for me to say my usual order...but for the fact that he already packed the soup ....... before I even stepped in.....

He then told me, "Next time, you can wind down your window and shout your order out and wait in the car. You don't have to come down if you can't find parking."

Mike said that this is a sign of auntyhood. WAHLAU.

Reminds me of my mother winding down her window and yelling out her fruit rojak order from across the street. Damn aunty.

I find it scary because what if I were like driving around to go to another coffee shop or stall to get something else.... I feel obligated to buy chicken rice now.

Tuesday, December 8, 2015

34 weeks.

It still feels surreal until today - when I think back on the day I discovered that I was pregnant and how I'm now in the final weeks of my pregnancy.

I have so often wished for this day to arrive, being the impatient person that I am.

I keep telling people that I want to feel like "myself" after delivery again but I know that things will never ever be the same again - but I suppose it's all a part and parcel of this journey in life.

I am excited to meet the little one!

I am still in awe of how God created us women with the ability to bear a child. This reminds me of a verse I read the other day - Ecclesiastes 11:5 : "As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things."

I still remember the first ultrasound scan picture of a little sesame seed in my womb with a beating heart. And at 34 weeks now, oh how the baby has grown and is still growing !!!

In 2 weeks' time, the baby will be full term and my gynae told me that I would be 'ready' to deliver anytime after that.  She also advised me not to eat any herbal stuff (ginseng and pao sum) because it would make my blood thinner and would cause me to bleed.

I was also told that I am having high water retention as well - I didn't know that but now perhaps it makes sense because my hands and wrists have been hurting too - carpal tunnel syndrome - especially my left hand !! It's super painful. Le sigh.

Also, just like how I diagnosed myself earlier, I told my gynae about the aches I've been having and she affirmed that it's sciatica by asking me whether I felt any pain when I tried to wear my panties while standing up. Hahaha.  The sad part of sciatica is that it will take awhile to go away, even after delivery. Urghhhh.

A lady at the reception in the clinic told me "not to take things lightly" if I feel any pain anywhere after 36 weeks because I could be in labour -_-"

One of my biggest fears is not knowing that I am labour - but is this even possible?! Hahaha. I keep picturing unbearable painful contractions that would indicate that I am in labour.

Anyway, I am trying not to think about it because there's just no escaping the pain. I'll just deal with it when it happens.

4D scan of the baby :

The baby's finger in her mouth.

It's also getting harder and harder to get a 4D scan of the baby's face. During the past few check ups, my stomach had to be prodded because the baby's hands and feet would be in the way.

Sunday, December 6, 2015

How I fill my time.

Cooking and baking to me is actually a personal hobby hence when people wonder how in the world do I think of "what to cook" everyday . . .  well, when it's a hobby, you just feel automatically inspired and it doesn't even feel like a chore at all.

I enjoy grocery shopping, reading cookbooks and recipes online. I enjoy "playing" with the ingredients that I have at home to whip something up. However, I'm not very experimental - I just cook "safe" tested and tried recipes because I don't want my food to go to waste if it turns out shitty.

The following are some pictures of what I've cooked in November and December. Been trying to cut down on grocery shopping so that I can finish the items in the fridge because I don't think I'll have the time to cook for the first few months next year -_-"

Curry kapitan. Don't really like cooking curry at home because it's a very messy affair with curry stains etc. 

The other day I cooked a fried fish coated with kunyit and curry powder . . . the oil stained my entire shirt and I can't wear it out anymore unless I'm at the passer malam. LOL.

Vegetarian bee hoon.

Felt inspired to cook salmon porridge after having it at Niji (which btw, was surprisingly tasty).

I'm actually a fried rice lover :D

Curry laksa - I didn't boil the soup from scratch though (instant paste)!

Braised pork belly - was satisfied with the overall taste but my pork belly was a little on the tough side. Would have been better if I had slowly cooked it in the slow cooker.

Big breakfast - on days when I can't sleep.

Scallop cream pasta.

Mee hoon soup

Bah Kut Teh

Sar hor fun

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Actually, cooking for two in Malaysia is not economical for the household.

I spend an average of RM150 a week on groceries (it's a steep amount for 2 people) and considering that I usually only cook on weekdays (dinner time). But to be fair, I buy my groceries from Village Grocer near my house so it's more costly compared to buying from the market.

Also, I tend to cook a lot of pasta and there is heavy usage of brown mushrooms, cream and cheese which is also quite costly. And I also bake a fair bit and the cost of butter is $$$. One block of butter costs easily close to RM10. I also have been buying avocado regularly which adds up to the cost. Avocado shake! MmmmMMmm.

Pork is expensive. Fish is expensive. Beef is expensive. Haha. Almost everything is expensive these days. There are days when I cook Asian food and tell myself that it would have been so much cheaper if Mike and I just drove out to eat the very same meal for two outside.

The cost of cooking Bah Kut Teh for 2 at home would have cost about the same as eating outside. But oh well, it's all done in the name of #homecookedfood and #stayathomewife. HAHAHAHA. I need to earn my keep to stay at home. Kidding.

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

Dr Google

Sometimes, you just gotta love Google for its vast information readily available. Although I do note that whenever you google about symptoms/sickness, it seems as though every symptom on the checklist regarding my current condition seems to be fulfilled even though in reality, it's not the case.

Just about last week, I have started developing new pains and with google, I have 'self diagnosed' myself to be suffering from sciatica - with this being the main symptom - aching in the buttock, back of the thigh (hamstring) and calf.

I really have no idea how this pain developed on my right side but this is definitely something new. I am somewhat accustomed to aches 'down there', as I have been getting it on and off and my gynae has assured me that this is very normal. Also, I had bouts of pelvic pain previously when walking up and down the stairs, which is also normal.

But this new pain is ever more painful that both of the previous aches that I had because it feels like a very SHARP tearing pain on my butt and thigh even with minimal movement! 

The slightest movement can trigger this tearing and pulling sensation and it really hurts, sometimes to the point of tears. And to think that I am still having mixed feelings on whether I should be using epidural prior to labour when I cannot even stomach this pain.

A curious part of me wants to feel the extent of labour pains and how bad people say it is....but the scared part of me tells me to just get it.

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Another symptom?

Yesterday night, I felt so much discomfort when I was about to go to bed.

I was so thirsty so I drank quite a bit of water but I felt an acid reflux reaction brewing.
I plopped my head on both my pillow and bolster to prevent the reflux.
I was feeling so uncomfortable and gassy but I managed to go to bed because I was so tired.

Mike blamed the cheesecake that I had late at night -_-"

The next day, I made myself a banana shake and peanut butter toast.
Shortly after that, the dreaded wind in my stomach came around.

Everything started to make sense with my discomfort last night -
a diarrhoea was already in the works.

That feeling of on and off knots being tied in the stomach urghhhh . . .
that twisting pain was so uncomfortable
and the baby kept squirming in my stomach the whole time too. . .

I had to google on whether the stomach wind was disturbing the baby. Hahaha.

Anyways, I kept trying to recall whether there was anything 'dirty' that I ate but there was nothing like that. Mostly homecooked food and seeing that Mike was fine, it was just me.

I read that diarrhoea is quite common in the last trimester as well though. Thankfully it only lasted for a day.

Counting down the days.

Monday, November 23, 2015

Random Updates

Thought of writing a few more posts on Perth but I just totally lost the mood. Perth trip is already history. SO MUCH yet so little has happened since Perth.

Here are some random updates/thoughts/musings that I have had over the past few weeks/months :

1) I am officially 8 months pregnant. One and a half more months to go. I told Mike that I wish I could deliver, like now! Only because, I have been starting to feel like how I felt before - "feeling not like myself".

2) Hate feeling tired despite not doing ANYTHING! Been sleeping and napping so much again. Feels a little like the first trimester and I am expecting the fatigue to get worse as I grow bigger and bigger.

3) Since I stopped work, I find myself being more at peace - being ALL BY MYSELF. Driving to work every morning - I would get agitated whenever I would encounter annoying motorcyclists and taxi drivers who think that they are the king of the road. I forgot how it felt like until I fetched Mike to work one day - and I know for a fact, that I do not miss driving to work. LOL.

4) The peace that I have is somehow often shortlived when I am surrounded by tactless people. It amazes me how there are so many assholes/irritants around. When you are used to not having to deal with these people, once I encounter them, I get so SO MAD and poor Mike has to bear the brunt of my complaints.

5) As much as I pity socially awkward people, these are the people that unfortunately, annoy you without knowing. They do not know how to read body language and because they don't know what to say to you, every single time they meet you, they will ask you the same damn question that you are tired of answering.

A friend of mine used to tell me how this guy would ask him every.single.time he sees him - "So how's wedding prep?" to a point that he just doesn't know what to say to him anymore. Totally can relate.

There's one person who asked me the same question easily for at least 5 times - "How's pregnancy?" . . .  DAMN SIEN OK to answer the same question asked by the SAME PERSON.

6) People who are attention starved seriously should have other better things to do than to focus on themselves. The world does not revolve around you.

7) Today was one of those days where I am so thankful that I get to just sleep in. Well, I do that everyday but you tend to take it for granted after awhile. I really NEEDED that few extra hours of sleep.

Thursday, November 12, 2015

Knee Deep Winery & Restaurant

The highlight here was probably the really fresh and delicious oysters.
Mike wasn't too pleased that I ate two oysters though.

He told me that I could eat all the oysters I wanted after the pregnancy
but I believe in moderation and I have to admit, resisting temptation is HARD!

Plus, of course, it's also dependant on whether the items are fresh as well.

The other items we had here were just average for us though.

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Al Forno, Busselton

Al Forno was recommended by the owners of the B&B. They gave us a couple of suggestions of eateries around the B&B and the moment I saw that Al Forno had risotto, I just knew I had to go there :)

The place was packed ! We did have to wait for our food for quite awhile. 

And funnily enough, when travelling around Margaret River, you will tend to see the same tourists you saw throughout the day at the same places. I saw the same tourists at the Chocolate Factory, at the Busselton Jetty and even at Al Forno.

Seems as though there's no where else to go. Hahaha.

Mike wanted to order chips.

I asked him, "Don't you want your soup, as usual?"
Mike : Boring.

"How about some garlic bread?"
"Boring too. Let's get some chips."

Suddenly, chips became the most exciting appetiser for him -_-"

My chicken risotto. It was tasty!

Mike had the special pasta of the day - some seafood pasta.

It looked really good with the chunks of seafood in it but Mike told me that her prefers my pasta.
HOW flattering. Hahaha. I reckon it's because the pasta that I cook is super fattening and has lots of cheese. LOL.