Saturday, April 15, 2017

14 months

Sometimes, as I read posts of parents gushing about their children, I can't help but think to myself on how obsessive some of them sound.

I have to make a mental note to myself on not to be like that, subconsciously and wonder if I do sound like that.

I remember an ex colleague listing down all the words her son could say.
In my head, I was yawning away (then), when I was childless.

Hence, this post may be boring to most of you as well but I'm documenting it down for the sake of remembering.

At Olivia's current development pace, I can't keep up with remembering too many things.

If you were to ask me when did she start sitting up, standing up, etc, all her milestones are a blur to me unless I read old posts or if I did document them down somewhere because I can't really remember exactly when.

At 14 months, she would always want to hold our hands while walking in malls.

Sometimes she would want two people holding her hand on each side while she would walk in the middle as she isn't steady with her walking.

Gone are the days when she would sit quietly in her stroller. I miss those days. Hahaha.
Now she wants to get out to walk all over the place!

She is fascinated by touching cold drinks.

This little copycat wants to do what every other kid does in the mall.

This bull ride isn't meant for young kids but she was making so much noise so we had to just ask for a favour to let her sit on the bull for a couple of seconds.

She was SO pleased.

This car ride is also for older kids but she wanted to sit in it SO BADLY.

And at this age, if she doesn't get her way, you know what happens. ZZZzzz.

It took some time to coax her to get out of the car!

Her tantrums during this period are challenging to deal with when we're outside.

At home, I'll just let her cry and get angry but when we're out, I tend to give in to her so that she won't make a scene although I know that I shouldn't.

Her current favourite words are :-

DOG DOG (whenever she hears the neighbour's dog barking).

NO-NOSE - while pointing at her nose. She would tell us she knows where her nose is like more than 10 times a day. I'm guessing what will be the next body part word buzz for her. Before this, it was HEAD.

BA BA - this could mean many, many things - asking me to sing Baa Baa black sheep, or she could be referring to Barney the dinosaur, or asking me to turn on the TV for her.

BOOKS! All day, everyday.

Almost every book has a torn page :~(
Especially those with flaps.
She'll try to peel through the pages.

I'm always mending her books.

In the span of a month, she now walks pretty steadily and she can even walk up the stairs now (supervised of course).

She loves to ask for her toothbrush to brush her teeth.
Think that she's influenced by some videos she watched - "this is the way we brush our teeth.." - familiar?

Baby songs have now taken over my household.
From Korean OSTs to Nursery Rhymes and children's songs! LOL. And oh, I have to sing to her multiple times a day - like a jukebox on the go played by request.

Her favourite "hit" song of the month - Itsy Bitsy spider.

She now has like 6 teeth all coming out simultaneously.
LOTS and lots of drool the past few weeks.

She still does not like being alone, at home.
Someone always has to be around her.

But when she's out at the malls, it's as though she has her wings to freedom.
She isn't afraid of being left alone.

I always use the "bye bye technique" to get her moving or going whenever she refuses to budge.

Even when I said bye bye and walk away, half the time she will ignore me and I'll have to carry her because she won't follow me -_-"

She doesn't even listen to me at all during her Little Gym sessions!

While all the other babies (most babies to be exact), will be sitting with their caretaker/parent(s) during joint activities, Olivia will be wandering all around the gym exploring and doesn't come to me whenever I call her. TSK TSK.

She doesn't listen to me!

I know that this is just the beginning. . . . .
and a parent told me that "they start young."

Friday, March 17, 2017

SAHM Guilt

I am constantly plagued with guilt - the guilt of not doing anything productive even though I possibly could. However, I have been helping to boost the economy in the little ways that I can. LOL. 

Speaking of spending, I tend to also get angry with myself on spending on so many unnecessary things but sometimes, I really can't help it!

I try to refrain from going out unless deemed "necessary" but then again, it can get super boring staying at home so I prefer hanging out at malls.

Almost every single time I walk into Mothercare or NEXT or Zara baby, it is highly likely that I'll be carrying a shopping bag out and half the time, I'm buying things that can only last for a few months.

I have banned myself from shopping for clothes for Olivia until she turns 2 and it has been hard.
She has more than enough clothes to last the year BUT baby clothes are just TOO CUTE !!!

The irony of Olivia having "too many clothes" is that every time I have to dress her to go out, she is always still in the same clothing all the time and I feel that she has nothing to wear - but that's also probably because she goes out so SO often -_-"

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Olivia is now 14 months old.
I was wondering when will she start walking!

I always thought that she would walk before she turned one but it is not until just recently that she has started taking her baby steps, unassisted.

Although there are moments when I'd rather be working because the taste of financial freedom often tempts, there are so many moments for me to cherish - just spending time with Olivia and seeing her all happy just makes me realise how I shouldn't go chasing after things that I can live without.

I realised that my biggest battle as a SAHM is the "fear of missing out." 

This silly fear is so real in my life today - not just for me personally but I don't want Olivia to miss out on anything as well!

I think that this fear also somewhat stems from kiasu-ness.

Whenever I see other kids having something nice or going to fancy schools, I think that it's only natural for a parent to want to be able to give their kids the same as well, if not more? 

But the problem with this is that, it's never-ending.

Thankfully, somewhere at the back of my brain, my rationality overrides all my whims and fancy longings. 

I go through this cycle almost daily - segregating needs and wants.
I rationalize with myself to keep myself sane.

And I remind myself of the bigger picture of what should really matter in this very short life that we have.

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Brought Olivia to the playground for the first time.
She loves the slide!

The next time these two meet, they're all probably going to be running all over the place!

I remember that when Olivia was a couple of month old, I wanted to get her the Hape Play Cube.

Thankfully, I didn't because she isn't interested in it or to things similar to it.
Maybe she's still too young to appreciate it.

I love bringing Olivia to the pet shop so that she can see animals but the pet shop smells!

She loves bird watching.

Mothercare - probably the store that I most frequented in 2016 and 2017 to-date -_-"

Tried to keep her entertained as I cooked.

Brought her to the children's room @ RLC.


Car ride - again!

Finger painting fun!

It was a messy affair.

Current mall situation - wanting to walk all the time!

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

One month behind

My posts are all about a month behind time.
I've been writing on Dayre as I find it easier to post daily snippets there.

CNY just came and went this year.
I remember last CNY, I had reunion dinner at home as well and was still going through confinement.
This year, so much has change now that Olivia is a year old.

She sure had a feast herself during CNY munching on tidbits here and there
and taking little sips of packet drinks too.

She loves trying new flavours. She's a curious little one.

Reunion dinner @ home

I only cooked the steamed fish, stir fried vegetables and pepper pork soup.
Roast pork was cooked by my mum and my parents-in-law brought char siew and chicken.

Dinner at my grandmother's house the next day.

Mandatory family picture :)

Grandmother's mee suah - a blessing to be eating it every CNY for the past 20 years.

Thai laksa lunch at my parents' place.

Self timer pic

Everything oso wan this girl ah! Haha.